I did a meditation session with my friend Parminder this past February. We went pretty deep, into my gut where I've had ongoing issues. There was this shadow/monster from my childhood, I could only recognize as jagged and red eyes, and fear/confusion/not knowing what's going on.
Then I saw my heart all black and jagged. Hard. The hard stuff started to crack and crumble, revealing a bright diamond heart underneath. I realized all the trauma was 100% necessary to create the conditions of this path. I thanked all those who helped create my diamond heart and promised to honor the gift.
Going deeper, at this point my mind is empty and open. In my mind's eye I saw an angel, transparent skin with veins and nerves showing and bright white feather wings. Nothing like I've ever seen before. I whispered compulsively "Michael" as if hearing myself say the word only. He floated in and kissed me fully then all tension and control was gone.
The pathless path has unfolded, with no goal in mind. Reality is enveloping me like a familiar blanket, guiding me without effort. No more trying.
Diamond Heart
All the things they said It felt like darkness Cold and hard like stone
Time passing Assertion becomes reality Disconnected and withdrawn
Tricked into trauma The cycle of suffering Swallowing the lie
Mask of numbness And isolation To hide from the truth
It builds...too much A quest is accepted Flying higher than mountains
There are angels here Who grab and kiss you Make you see the path
The darkness cracks open Out comes a diamond Clear and light as this mind
With a diamond heart The path is clear Mine for others