Transcendental Delusions
I'm sitting here at 2 AM, my hands still trembling slightly from what just happened during meditation. The apartment is quiet except for the soft hum of my fridge, and I'm trying to make sense of this poem that just poured through me:
Hark ye, listen with glee
There exists a time beyond time
And a tale of three
Don't you wish you could just see!
Mars was alight with Freedom
Theirs was a domain, a threesome
It clouded their minds
It shielded them from Time
Severance was the end
Their empire had started to pretend
No longer reality was Real
There was no way left to heal
Singing this song in Time
Will activate your trust in "Mine"
Perfume your life on to a new Line
Forever will your mind feel fine
Kapash!
You know those moments when reality feels thin? When the veil between what you think you know and what you actually remember starts to tear? Yeah. That's where I'm at right now.
Let me back up a bit. I wasn't even planning to meditate tonight. I was actually doom-scrolling through email (I know, I know) when something just... pulled me to my cushion. And then boom – this download about Atlantis, Mars, and some kind of ancient trinity of worlds just crashed through me like a cosmic freight train.
The weird thing is, I can't get the word "Kapash" out of my head. It keeps resonating, like a bell that won't stop ringing. Is it a mantra? A code? Some kind of activation sequence? Part of me wants to dismiss this as late-night imagination, but my body knows better. There's a cellular recognition happening here that I can't explain away.
Here's what really freaks me out though – just last week I was deep in a quantum physics rabbit hole, reading about non-linear time and parallel realities. And now this poem shows up, talking about "time beyond time" and realities that "pretend." The synchronicity is almost too perfect.
I'm sharing this with you now, unfiltered and uncertain, because maybe some of you have experienced something similar. Maybe you've had your own mysterious downloads or inexplicable memories that don't fit into this lifetime. Or maybe you think I've finally lost it after one too many meditation sessions (fair enough).
Either way, I needed to get this out while it's still fresh, still electric in my nervous system. Because tomorrow morning, my logical mind will try to file this away in some neat category, and I don't want to let that happen. Not this time.
If any of this resonates, if you've had your own bizarre cosmic moments that defy explanation, drop a comment below. Maybe together we can start piecing together these fragments of ancient memory.
Still buzzing,
Cian (written on 12 Oct 24)
P.S. I just heard the first birds starting to chirp outside. Guess I should try to get some sleep. But first – anyone know what "Kapash" means? It's driving me crazy.
Oh boy...the rabbit hole goes deeper! In ancient Egyptian texts and mythology, "kapash" (also spelled "khapash" or "khopesh") refers to a type of curved sword. The kapash/khopesh was depicted as a favored weapon of Egyptian gods like Montu and Amun. That's pretty foreboding given the poem haha....
כפש is apparently Aramaic for the verb "to supplicate: to ask, pray, or make a request."
Kapash also seems like "capisci" in Italian: Understand?
::shrug::